I think this is more suited for here than off-topic...if it needs moved, feel free
Ok, I've been having a large creativity delimma for the last few months now.
I'm having a very difficult time in finding direction for my abilities. I tend to be one-track minded. I tend to be somewhat analytical and am very passionate about my endevours, but currently with music I am feeling very hard pressed to be who I am.
I currently play with a hard rock band. We haven't done as well as we have hoped since we hit the scene early last fall. I am very much aware that this is a short amount of time. I'm becoming more and more restless with this situation. I feel bound souly to my bass duties. The approach we take on creating new material, just...feels so processed at times. CHORUS-VERSE-CHORUS-VERSE-BRIDGE-VERSE blah bah I'm just giong through the motions now. The others seem at least relatively happy with the way things are going about. I did feel like I was in a band that had direction, now it seems more like the basement jams from earlier in my music...career, for lack of a better term at the moment. Our music has been somewhat reborn after adding our lead guitarist, that added a new flare for a little while, but now we seem to have fallen back snuggly into our slots. We're currently working on material to add to our current so we can release a full albumn hopefully in fall. If that doesn't create a splash for us at least locally, then my time here is most definately numbered.
My main issue is my personal direction. As I said, I tend to stay focused on things when I take to them...but with music, there is so much I want to do, but I just don't have the means to accomplish them. Having seen Freekbass and communicating with him often I now have a great desire to create a working Funk band. That music just moves me, literally, it makes me do what other people call dancing(which I consider myself to do rather poorly, I'm just being moved by the groove). Also, I've recently discoverred a band call Blue October. I think the vocals are absolutely incredible....the melodies follow no set format, but are held together by passion. These are two of the newer artists that are really inspiring me.
But inspiring me to what?
I lack direction. Also, I'm a fairly introverted person and find it very difficult to communicate my ideas(and often communicate in general) with others. I just feel stuck. A large part of me wants to pack up and leave this place and start again in a new city, somewhere with a moderately prosperous music scene, but I have to wonder what I would gain by diong something like that. I'm confident that with my abilities I would be able to find music to be a part of, but would it return to the same old drudge that I feel like I'm giong through now.
I know everyone goes through this. It's just eating at me to the point that I don't know what to do anymore.
Sorry, I'm sure that has been covered several hundred times before, but being such a personal issue I didn't really want to search for similar threads....
