First of all,I hate whining but you guys are the only people I can whine so you'll have to listen.
First of all this is my 5th year in university and I've completed only 25 credits and I need 135 to graduate.My dads very upset and this is giving me a great amount of pain just to even think about it.
Secondly there was this girl I liked for 1.5 years and I haven't like a girl as much as I did her for 5 years and I've been single in this 5 years.Last friday I was listening to Finally Free of DT and something popped in my brain.I had to tell her how much I like her,so I went home and sent a message through "facebook".God,how I hate these sites!
I though she was into me too as she was looking at me anywhere she saw me,I "DO" agree it was really dumb to send a message like that but I wasn't clearly thinking and was "possessed" by the song.She didn't even sent a reply and this happened right at the time when I decided to put my life together.That devastated me,I'm feeling terrible which is very unlikely me.
Last night I found my first love ever,first girl I ever held a girl's hand.Send a message and 5 mins. ago she told me she does not remember me.What the heck is going on with my life?
Feeling that bad and trying not to make my parents feel it is another pain.....
Ahhh ok.I just needed a relief,to tell these to some one as I kinda locked myself in time and can't whine/cry to even my best friends or whatever,I just needed to tell this stuff to someone so thanks for listening.
Also,this is like a joke next to whats going on with "Spanky"'s life,so right now,forget about me and say a prayer for the fella.
