So its probably been close to 6 months since i've actually posted something on here. I don't know if anyone remembers me or not, but I'll probably be around a bit more.
I've moved off to college... I'm at Clarkson University in new york, almost to the canadian border, studying mechanical engineering. I got through my first semester just fine... 3.1 GPA, not terrible...
I had to deal with a long distance relationship with my girlfriend, who i've been seeing for just over a year now
She's transferring up to SUNY Potsdam this semester, which is about a minute from my school. I'm very excited about that!
I just got back from winter break last night, and started classes today. Shouldn't be too difficult... basically the second part of all the classes i took last semester, and i really don't mind the work at all.
With all that said, i've been through some rough stuff. I was a serious pothead last semester, sunk into depression on and off, and nearly broke up with my girlfriend on a few occasions. Since then, i've gotten off the drugs and probably don't have to worry about depression as much since i won't have to deal with the long distance thing.
So of course, i should be happy as a clam, but i just don't really feel it. Dealing with the long distance thing the first semester sort of kept me from making solid friendships here at school. And now that my girlfriend is coming up here, it seems like it might be even harder to do that if i'm spending a lot of my time with her. Its hard, but i love this girl and i really do think i'm going to spend the rest of my life with her. In a way, i wish we had gotten involved somewhere further down the line, so i could have the full "college experience" without having to worry about keeping her happy and stuff too. I know some of you may say that i must not really want to be with her if i feel this way, but thats not true at all. I have the most fun and i am most happy when i'm with her, i just want to have normal friendships as well.
Sorry if this is all long and boring, and most of you probably don't care, but any comments are appreciated. I just haven't really had anywhere to vent and let out my feelings, so i figured i'd come back here since you guys are always listening.
