I'm not looking for advice or anything. I'm just dumping. Feel free to skip over it.
So the girlfriend and I busted up over the weekend. I had been thinking about breaking it off for a while. I really like her and she's very cool and she has a lot to offer...but I just wasn't looking for love, marriage, lifelong commitment...etc. And she was.
I tried to make it clear to her from the start, but maybe I didn't do such a good job.
Anyway, we went to a tattoo convention in Richmond on Saturday. We got into a stupid argument right before walking inside. She refused to go inside so I went in solo. I spent twenty minutes or so inside expecting her to finally get over it. But she never did. So I went out to find her pouting in the lobby. I tried to talk to her but she ignored me. So I went back inside.
After a few hours of us being apart, I decided I was ready to go home. So I found her and told her that I was leaving.
The two hour ride back home was brutal. I finally turned some music on and used that to drown the awkward silence.
As soon as we got to my place, she started packing her things without saying a word.
She got all of her stuff out of my apartment while I played tetris on the computer. After she left, I opened a beer and put the television on. Within about two hours, she came back and wanted to talk. It was already over in my mind.
I let her come inside and we talked but it was just me telling her that even thoguh I think she's great, we just want different things. She wants life long love and I'm not ready for that yet. I've been married before and it was awful. It will be a while before I'm ready for that again-if ever.
Also, she lives in New York but is in the process of moving to the DC metro area, where I currently live. I hate living here and am trying to move back to the west coast. There's about a million other reasons it wasn't working out; all of which I explained to her.
Ugghh, it was brutal. She cried a lot. And even though I was the one doing the breaking up, it kinda got to me to see how much I was hurting her. I wish that she could see that we just don't have the "right stuff" to go the distance.
Relationships suck.
That's all. I just wanted to dump a bit. if you read it, thanks. If not, I don't blame you.
By the way, if anyone on here attended the tattoo convention in Richmond, VA at the Kroger center on Saturday and saw a white guy and a Puerto Rican girl fighting, that was us.
