I appreciate all the responses and input!
To answer some of the questions posted (sorry, I haven't quite figured out the multiple quote option),
@Runnerman: no I have never actually injured myself prior to any of these events or performances.
@DwaynieAD: I DO experience that from time to time, sometimes VERY mild and I don't think about it, other times quite heavy, to where it then turns into some sort of depression/introversion and I end up staying in. I, most times, face it down though and go wherever it is I have to go, head up and a smile on my face. I will say that my Sister and Mom both definitely go through the same thing but, most times, they WON'T go and end up staying home.
@Epidrake, thanks for that tip. I tend to drink coffee before going out so I feel more energetic. I didn't realize that it can heighten those feelings.
To everyone that made comments about possible OCD, Neurosis etc:
I'd like to clarify that these don't hamper me in any serious way most times. In other words they don't keep me from doing what I have to do. And, usually, when something makes me anxious, frightened or uncomfortable, I tend to purposely put myself right in the middle of it to get over the anxiety as quickly as possible, and then embrace it and move on. I've purposely lived my life that way for the last 20+ years.
What I'm talking about is more a heightened awareness of the various things I'm doing prior to the event, considering what could possibly happen, and then being extra careful to make sure it doesn't.
For example, when slicing bread to make sandwich, I'm always careful not to cut myself (most people are). The day of a gig, however, I am EXTRA aware and careful, thinking "Man, wouldn't it suck if I cut myself right now".
On the other hand, in refrence to having to flick the light switch a certain number of times comment, I remember when I was a kid, I used to constantly count the number of steps I was going up and down, and then trying to come up with a rationale if the landing should be considered a step or not. Does that make sense? Wow, I haven't thought about that particular in years. TB is very cathartic, it seems!
I do have the urge to do that now as an adult from time to time, but have trained myself to no longer think about it.
I apologize if my original post made it sound more serious than it is. In hindsight, paranoia seems to be too heavy a word to describe what I'm feeling. I hope I've made myself a little more clear.
I don't, however, discount the fact that it might be a mild form of neurosis or OCD or what have you. Whatever the case may be, I appreciate all of the input and comments.
Now I need to go wash my hands 15 times. (JUST KIDDING, although a bad and insensitive joke, I must admit).