supposed to be a funeral, it's been a bad, bad day

[blueskid]

okay, so the funeral was 7 months ago, but sometimes gram parsons knows how to start a thread.
anyway, today is the 7 month anniversary of my best friend's passing. yesterday was her baby's 7 month "birthday."
it sucks that what should be great is also so awful. i know that things like this are supposed to get better, and in some sense it has. but for whatever reason it has just hit me really hard today. maybe it is because her husband is on a ship somewhere in the atlantic and we can't talk. maybe the shock is starting to wear off and that bubble of "this really isn't true" is going away. either way, i'm finding it damn near impossible to stop crying, or do anything else really.
maybe i was hoping that i would wake up and everything would be like it was before september 22 and we would go on like we had for the 24 years before that, except she would have a baby.
thanks for letting me vent

[MakiSupaStar]

Hang in there buddy. Grieving is a process. Be patient with it, and allow it to work through your system. It's both physical AND mental. Peace.

[GregC]

My sincerest condolences to you. The intensity of grief, I've found, doesn't ease in a nice, straight line like we want or expect it to. There are ups and downs, and sometimes it might grab you by the throat when you least expect it. But it does get better over the long run. I lost my best friend and former bandmate to cancer 15 years ago, and some pictures I had never seen popped up the other day from when we played the night before his wedding. There was a twinge of sadness, sure, but I mostly smiled and remembered all the good times. I wish you the same good fortune I've had as you recover.

[manicbassman]

It gets worse... birthdays really suck... my son only lived a month... he would be 15 this year... at least I still have my daughters (23 & 20) and my grandkids now (5 & 3)...

hang in there...

oh shoot... that's me gone...