Your shining beacon

P. Lacey · #1 02-05-2009, 01:42 AM

I will start this by saying this: Misfits attract misfits. Truer words have never been spoken. My reason for saying this is, I take the bus to tafe every morning, and home in the afternoon. Mornings I point blank refuse to talk to anyone, because I am not firing on all levels at that stage. But over the last two afternoons, I have had some interesting conversations.

Bit of background information so you understand where I am coming from. I have severe depression, and I dropped out of school last year because of it. I was on the verge of being admitted into a pysch ward it got that bad. Now, I was waiting for a bus, and I got into a conversation with a guy by the name of Johnno, who was a nice guy, and a religious guy with bi polar. Having known the depression side of things rather intimately, I decided to ask him about the manic side of it. After that we continued on to what got us through the depression. His reason was Jesus. I am not a religious guy, and I don't fully understand my beliefs to be honest. However, as much as I hate people preaching at me, I found this guy really interesting, as his take on things showed a passionate view of his morals and beliefs.

The next day, I met Tabitha, who was a former homeless mother of two, who at the age of 22 is getting taken to court by her sister. And through the homeless times, her love of her kids is what made her stick it out and get back on her feet. Two different people, different outlooks, one resounding similarity: They both had their beliefs and hopes to get them through. This has led me to wonder what get TB'ers through the times when you feel like jumping in front of a bus (which I mean figueratively for most, but their will be a few who, like me, did use to feel like that).

OT, what is your reason for getting out of bed in the morning?

lunarpollen · #2 02-05-2009, 08:23 AM

I get out of bed in the morning to try and get ready to get to work not too late, so that I can keep making enough money to pay for rent, bills, food, etc. I know, it's not much, but I guess there is also the faint hope that one day I will meet someone female who likes me who is my type, and also there is the occasional purchase of new gear, exposure to new great music, etc. Not a lot of happiness in my life but I guess it's better than the alternative for the time being....

Gard · #3 02-05-2009, 08:27 AM

These two critters:

spade2you · #4 02-05-2009, 08:46 AM

I thought this was about shipping bacon. Not as good.

T.O.Bass · #5 02-05-2009, 08:51 AM

I'm of the mind that all actions are self-motivated. In the end I wake up for the things that put a smile on my face and make me feel good: Pretty women, good food, good music, good beer, good sex, good friends, good sex with friends, good food and music with pretty women, good sex with pretty women, good food, music, and beer with friends...

Pretty much any combination is inherently good and consequently makes me happy, I find.

warwick.hoy · #6 02-05-2009, 08:53 AM

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Originally Posted by lunarpollen

I get out of bed in the morning to try and get ready to get to work not too late, so that I can keep making enough money to pay for rent, bills, food, etc. I know, it's not much, but I guess there is also the faint hope that one day I will meet someone female who likes me who is my type, and also there is the occasional purchase of new gear, exposure to new great music, etc. Not a lot of happiness in my life but I guess it's better than the alternative for the time being....

+1 except the bolded text.

I've found out that the owner of the sandwich shop I've been working at for over 2 years has been stealing from me. About 10 months worth of wage garnishments that he hasn't paid to the creditors totaling more than 2 grand. I can't wrap my head around why I still work for this guy.

In these times it is not easy, but I look at it as a test of how well I do with adversity. That and if I quit I don't get unemployment benefits if the boss has even paid into them. The job market sucks right now too. I could go work in another kitchen, but it would assuredly be in the evenings and that doesn't jive with rehearsal or hockey.

EDIT: He's going down when I get my ducks in a row.

Relic · #7 02-05-2009, 08:53 AM

My kids. Before I had kids, I thought I knew it all. I did whatever I wanted to do, partied, drank, traveled, smoked various silly substances, dated all sorts of womenz, and basically lived a bohemian lifestyle with no one to answer to but myself.
The exact 1st second of the first minute my oldest son was born, was like an epiphany. My thoughts were "holy crap, here's this tiny little helpless perfect person, and I'M supposed to look out for him, protect him, teach him right/wrong, feed and clothe him? ME???"
My entire outlook on life switched inwards to outwards in a tenth of a second and hasn't changed since. Hard to explain, I'm still the guy I've always been still with a lot of the bohemian mindset but my love and caring for my kids trumps everything and keeps me going, even on days where I just don't feel all that great.