Was back at the scene of the crime last night...had a concert with the same orchestra (Wisconsin Philharmonic) and section I stunk up last Spring, and while I didn't play a flawless performance by any means, things went considerably better than May's debacle.
I have to admit, the thought of stepping in it again was hanging heavily on my mind. I felt well-prepared...spent a lot of time with the parts, but I could feel the apprehension creeping in as 7:30 approached. So instead of shedding the tough sections 15 minutes before the gig, I indulged myself in some long tones and just got into that relaxed "listener" frame of mind.
The repertoire was pretty tough...A Verdi overture and then an orchestration of Corgliano's Sonata for Violin and Piano. Not that tough technically, but the time sigs were shifting madly and there were some exposed parts. I missed a couple of entrances, but was solid on most. Second half was Enigma Variations. Again, not a perfect performance, but kept poised and relaxed through most of it (though Nimrod gets me choked up every time). My main focus was to be able to brush off my mistakes, and I think I succeeded for the most part.
Even got a personal "thumbs up" from the principal. Don't think I'll ever be the most confident player, but this helped a lot.
Pull up the weeds before they're too damn big.
Last edited by Mike Goodbar : 10-10-2012 at 07:35 AM.