I assume we all feel down at times or others. From what I understand this is normal. After all, life cant always be just ups as if it was so the very mere notion of ups or downs would not be required. That and the fact that everything that is life seems to work in cycles. Accepting this, in a resilient way rather than a submissive one, we find tricks, activities, rituals, anything that make us go back up when we get a bit down. Be it just time in some cases. Those are often based on our interests, ideally passions. This is why I find myself writing this. I have no passion(s) and have never had any. There are things I look forward to, things that entertain me, that I like, people that I love or did love. But a real passion ? Something that gets me striving day and night, that keeps me going just by the thought of it ? I sadly find none. Dont get me wrong, as Ive said I like what I do, and like many things. I just find it sad to have nothing Im passionate about. Which is bland and I could use the extra motivation. The other thing that made me write this is that I find my " downs " to be very similar lately. Kind of like the same feeling repeating itself at different time intervals. Its really not that frequent, but still, theres an odd feeling to it. Now and then, I get a very lonely feeling that leads to some kind of " negative introspection ", a self-confidence bashing of some sorts if you prefer. I usually sleep it off as most of the times this happens late at night when I should probably be sleeping, when my thoughts are close to rambling than a structured train of thought. Brushing it off always seemed like the way to go about it. Nobody likes a negative person. Which is perhaps why I dont find myself speaking about these sorts of things and try to be cheerful. That and the fact that I am in fact sort of lonely and lost (read: broke-up with) the person which used to be my confident. I dont have many good friends and they all live some hundreds of miles away. And since Ive arrived in this town I cant really say Ive made much acquaintances or actually met people. Anyways, I just felt like putting this out there, it feels good to vent. I should probably go sleep now and go out more often and start exercising again. I somehow have a feeling I'll regret this thread.