As some members here know, I started my journey on DB about a year ago, maybe a little longer now. Is it time to pack it in? I'm having some troubles right now. I love the upright; the sound, the feel, the look even. I'll always love the upright, but I'm really hitting a sticking point right now. My progress has been retarded by my lack of discipline, not putting in the required time to excel. Have I made strides since I've started? Yes, certainly. I can know shift and play with a greater confidence and ability than before. Yet, I'm still struggling mightily to convey sounds and concepts that are in my head. I don't have the physical ability to bring them out on upright. Is this because I don't have the talent or never will? No. I recognize that. It's because I have not put in the time. What I'm recognizing is that the time necessary to put into the instrument is great. Or, at least to me, it seems great. Maybe to others these things come more naturally. My teacher has been pushing me lately, and I feel a little too hard, taking me places that I should be able to go, if I have put in the time to get there, but again, I haven't. This is something I will be speaking to him about on my next session, rest assured, but it has me thinking? Am I enjoying this enough, the process of discovery, the process of learning, of starting anew? Am I enjoying this enough to push forward? Especially when my faculty on the electric is established. I love music in all ways, and am not afraid of hardwork. But when my life right now is dedicated to entering a Psy,D. program and all that comes with the preparation for that, helping my lady's health care practice grow and thrive, and my "day" job, I wonder how many different directions I'm able to spread myself. Am I just in a rut? Should I lay down the beast right now in favor of the slab? Do I push through this sticking point? These are all questions I battle with right now.