My whole life, I haven't finished many things. Usually, they're not compelling to me, and I lose interest. One of the most difficult things in my life has been to find any satisfaction, great or small, in the things that I do. Playing bass has been one of those things. I've played off and on for the last 8 years. The difference is though, that even though it's not satisfying, it makes me feel good. In fact, sometimes when I'm feeling bad,it's the only thing that makes me feel better. For the last year I've been working a job that now seems to be unsure. Things are happening in the office that I can't really interpret. So, I've come to the conclusion that if things turn bad, I don't think I'll try to find another serious job. I've felt that my dedication to my current job has been unappreciated. I don't think I'm ready to jump from the stress of one career type job to another, so if it all collapses I've decided to just dedicate my life to music. I never did so in the past because I never felt like I was any good, but I've now reached the point that it doesn't matter. I'm going to be able to say that I at least tried to make my life something enjoyable. I don't assume any of you care about this, but for some reason I feel compelled to share it with an audience that might relate. If you have thoughts or comments, please share them.