I keep goin back and forth with whether I should post this or not.... and well, I'm throwing the towel in. Here goes my dirty laundry once more... The Nerve! consists of pretty much me and randy (the guitarist/singer). we do all the work, take care of all the expenses, write all the music, and deal with whatever drummer situations arise. Just for the record - we have a regular drummer, Santo - but we often need fill ins because of 1000 assorted reasons. that ain't the problem - problem is - Randy and I pretty much hate each others guts. In about 12 years time we went from friends to brothers to brothers who fight to 2 people who can't stand being in the same room together. We've had lenghty discussions, we both put everything we've got on the table, we've consulted with others, we've worked on our own crap individually - we've done pretty much everything under the sun that can be done to heal a relationship, and bottom line is we basically can't stand each other any more. I can write a book of gripes I have with him, and of course I'M RIGHT, and I know his side of the story would be almost equally convincing. One of the main things that's gotten in the way of our friendship is that I've been the transportation for the 2 of us for the past 5 years - and I hate driving. He doesn't want the responsibility of car, so I pay insurance, I go 1/2 an hour out of my way both ways to get him for almost every gig, I sit in traffic while he sleeps, etc. etc. For the past year he's been throwing me a 20 here and there, but it still bugs me. Anyhow - our drummer took off to arizona this weekend but lent him his car so we could transport this other guy we play with's drums. Randy drove Santo to the airport, picked up the other drummer, drove him to the gig we had tonight which was about an hour away, andI got there on my own. he's going to pick me up for a show we have tomorrow, and he told me tonight as we're packing up that he and I should chip in to fill up santo's gas tank when we're done with it all. 5 years of $160 a month car insurance, about $1000 a year in car repairs cuz my car sucks, gas for about 5,000 miles that I never asked him for... that's what I've been putting out - and when I tell him I'm not giving him any money for the gas used, he starts calling me a selfish #@$% . That was just the camel that broke my straw back - the whle night was pretty bad btwn the 2 of us. I think it's hopeless. We've got so much goin for us right now, yet we're becoming really miserable. I know we're not the first band to feel this way. With soo much invested, and things going better than they ever have, it's so hard to pack it in. Any one wanna share their experience, strength and hope???