Hey everyone, I'm still alive and since I put all of you through a really stupid thing that I did I thought I might as well post my progress... I'm still angry at two certian nameless people for hurting me. But since I'm the kind of person that holds grudges I don't think that's going to go away for a while, even with therapy. My therapy is really interesting, they have me seeing five different specialist-psychiatrists right now. My advanced form of PTSD has generated a condition of multiple-personality disorder in which each of my emotions have become an individual voice. Of course like all good psychiatrists they are medicating me. I'm now on 1mg Risperdal too keep me from thinking too much, 450mg Effexor to make me happy, 10mg Zyprexa to keep me from getting pissed off and Librium to keep me from going into convulsions. So far the side effects from the medications are sedation, internal bleeding and sexual disinterest... but they're not as bad as they used to be. Elsewhere in my life I'm relatively happy... My cartooning and tattoo work is earning me some money but it's still not a steady job. College is fun, I'm still a full-time student and cartoonist for the paper but even more suprising is that I was pretty much ordered to run for student government. I've become more popular around campus now that I'm a social smoker. I've got a new girlfriend that I really like, she's a cute little candy goth in denial that I really relate to well. My friends think that I'm inlove with her but it hasn't gone that far yet. Um... no more harsh drugs or even alchohol. Musically I'm still going, I got kicked out of the hispanic death metal band for the said overdose. That and my bass playing suffered for a while afterwards. I'm in a New Wave/Punk/Techno band called Dudechick, which is female fronted by my very good friend Angie. She stuffs a sock down her pants so she looks like a shemale when she plays. Right now my system is relatively impressive, I still have the soundgear but I'm really jonesing after the new EDC's... even over a Music Man. My amp rig has moved up a bit... I'm still using my trusty ampeg svt 3-pro as a preamp with the highmids notched out and bass and low mids pretty much maxed. I'm using a QSC power amp to fuel two yamaha 18" subwoofers and two yamaha 15" loud speaks. I get really impressive bass and growl at a volume you can feel. And as always I'm using effects, Synths more than ever With the addition of an Akia Deep Impact, new Boss Phaser but I'm going to invest in a Line6 MM4 soon for basic modulation, and I've added a BigMuff and Boss OC-2... Alway growing now that I don't have drugs or a girlfriend that lives 80,000 miles away to worry about. Well... that's about it... what's going on with everyone else?