I realized today that I get the same rush out of my career as I do playing onstage. Let me 'splain. Being up front is a rush, winning the audience, taking words on a Powerpoint and turning them into a performance takes careful planning much like a well crafted vocal harmony or bassline. It's a mental challenge to plan, execute, and then to anticipate the outcome, accept the failure or triumph in the success. I'm competing for a project that will employ 21 full time people and today I realized that I could give a crap about the commission, it's the rush of the presentation in round 2 and then winning and employing more people!!! Am I the only nutbag that feels this way? I just finished a 60 page proposal and should probably go to bed.