One of the things that triggers depression is major changes in your life. March 13, I will no longer be a teenager. I'll be 20. Who cares? No big whup. I can't remeber a damn thing. I can't look back on any real accomplishments. I haven't done anything memorable or more importantly "rebellious" and the teenage years were the ones to say, "**** athority, I'm going to live my life how I want to." And then you stop being a teenager and life becomes real. I don't want to go back on depression medicine they don't do much, I don't want to be a drag on everyone in my life. Maybe I am destined to be Nu-Metal... I can just bitch about it and continue being a ****ty bass player. It's times like this I understand why people drink, "Beer, now there's a temporary solution."