Tomorrow (Friday) will be the 8 year anniversary of my youngest brother's death. He died of cancer. He was 8 years old. I was in the room holding his feet saying my good-byes when he left this world. This is the first year since the second year that has gotten to me. I suppose because I spent the other years drowning this pain in chemicals. I am sick of dealing with this pain in this way. Can anyone here give me some tips on staying clean this year? I am not out for sympathy here, I need some help is all. I am getting counseling of a sort. There are no grief councilors in the area. My family is trying to support me. I want to stay clean and sober this year and every year after this. What I am looking for is something(s) I can do when the cravings get bad. Any help will be welcomed. Also if anyone would like to talk about either my experience with death or one you may have had I am open to it.