I had another seizure yesterday. It's my second. My first happened last August and was a grand mal and I wasn't aware during it. They found that I had a lesion deep in my brain on the part that controls speech and the motor controls for the right side of my body. It's a possible low grade brain tumor, but thankfully it hasn't grown it the past year. I remained completely aware during this seizure and it was the scariest experience of my life. I couldn't breath for a solid minute. I thought I was gonna suffocate. My mom was holding me and I wanted to say I can't breath but I couldn't speak or move. I was finally able to take very shallow quick breaths before I passed out. It turns out my liver has been working too good and my medicine that stops seizures had gotten too low. It's now been increased (again) to 1000 mg a day. All I could think about laying in the hospital bed was I hope my plucking hand's OK. The first thing I did when I got home was force myself to play Wicked Garded by STP even though I was dead tired and had a splitting headache. All was well . I will never be able to drink alcohol again as it lowers my seizure threshold (I don't know whether to be happy or sad). I guess I'll adapt. I'm also scared to death to drive now. My mom will be driving me to school for the next 6 months. My question to any TB'ers who have seizures is this: Do you ever get used to it? Are you aware? Are you able to breathe? Do you panic everytime or do you know it'll be over soon and remain somewhat calm?