So I suffer from extreme social anxiety, as well as a serious mental illness. This has kept me from performing because I struggle with being on stage and also cannot count on my ability to even make rehearsals. The other week, I was feeling especially confident. With the support of my amazing wife I ventured out to an open mic. I was the second one to go up. I performed Giant Steps with a backing track, and a solo piece I wrote for my wife. I even stayed on stage to jam with two guitar players and a hand drummer for about an hour. I am so proud of myself. I'm hoping for another bold day the next time the open mic rolls around. I'm not trying to toot my own horn, just putting this out there for anyone else that may be suffering from similar or other debilitating conditions. It can be done! {}
That’s outstanding! I remember my first violin recital as a kid, terrified. It gets easier. And you’d be surprised how many legendary performers suffer. Keep it up.
Seems like one of those "one step for man..." kind of things. Keep at it and it just gets more natural.
one of the benifits of social anxiety, and my other mental illness, is that I have A LOT of time to practice! I'm also proud that this is my first 5 string and I got it on christmas, so in a few weeks I made the transition. like I said, a lot of time to practice!
So much amazingness in that post. Between overcoming personal obstacles/demons to perform on stage and now looking forward to performing again, the simple fact that live performances an open mic nights are back, and some super cool artwork at the venue... You know, in my days of seriously gigging/touring, I met a lot of musicians with similar stories to yours. I once met a guitarist (absolute monster player) who told me he had mild agoraphobia- getting to a gig was a herculean effort for him (there was one bandmate who never left his side; emotional support and all), but once he was on the stage with his guitar strapped on and started playing, he got in the zone and felt like "home" again. Amazing the power of music and performance to bring out the best in people.
That is AWESOME! Way to go; I'm honestly very proud of you. Also, THANK YOU for sharing the moment with us! We all benefit from it and that may truly inspire some of us to push past what we believe holds us back. I had played tens of shows in a band context, but I'll never forget how different the pressure was the first time I had a short solo recital in college. TOTALLY different experience, no one but yourself, and I suddenly had new anxieties I hadn't had when I was just one of a group. You went up there all by yourself and DID IT! Also, how sweet is your wife to know and support you like that! That's special.
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