Sorry this is long but if you read it thank you very much! Well I hate to say it but I think my band is falling apart. It sucks too because we are all family but we have been fighting alot lately. I think it is a fundamental difference in thinking. We are basically an all original band but we know tons of covers so we could do that too. We have before. Anyway, so we have been trying to figure out ways to play more and promote ourselves. I will be honest with you money is tight for me and every time we play and don't make any it hurts. Although I do not play in a band for money. I do it for fun. So with that said lately we have been booking door gigs where we typically play with 2 other bands sometimes more. Doing this it is nearly impossible to make any money. I go into these totally expecting to only make 10 bucks and I am greatful when we do becuase it helps pay for gas. I also have to drive 100 miles to almost all of our shows which is the farthest in the band by far. Anyway, lately we have played several shows were we didn't get anything and next to no one but our trusty group of faithful fans came to watch. So I have been pushing for us to play more cover gigs where we make about 500 dollars as a band which is decent for 4 hours of work. Also these would be at bars with a more regular crowd and hopefully we could make more fans this way. However the other guys just don't want to do it. I say whats wrong with doing covers one night a week where we could throw in our originals and make some money. Then the other nights we play our originals in the smaller 1 hour shows a couple nights a week like we do? However they just don't want to do it. I think it all boils down to lazyness on the guitar players part. I say this becuase he is the main objecter to it. Anyway, the guitar player and drummer are hell bent on getting an agent and going on the road. I am ok with it as long as we get on it. The problem is the guitar player who takes care of all the promo packs and stuff is just being lazy about it and taking his sweet old time. I was at his house sunday trying to help him get it done and he was just like I will do it. I will send them tomorrow. So I was like ok, but I will help. He didn't really want my help though. So anyway, I talk to him today and I was like "did you send them?" He said "yeah well I sent 6." I was pissed. There were 16 places we had got info for to send stuff and he couldn't even do that. So I say "why didn't you send the rest?" He was like "well I sent 6 of them, because I didn't get all the promo packs done" By the way 2 were to places who we sent them too already. I was so mad because there is no reason not to get the promo packs done. He is unemployed and sits on his butt all day. The only thing he does is play guitar and surf the net or watch dvds. So I am mad. I just feel like he half asses everything and procrastinates on everything. I am so frustrated right now I just want to quit the band, but at the same time its all I really got going right now. I love playing music but it just drives me nuts that my other band mates can't do things in a timely manner. Also I think we are so unorganized when it comes to everything. I want to have more responsibility in the band but no one lets me really. I think it has to do with me being the youngest (23) and everyone kinda sees me as their younger brother. (I am their cousin by the way, the guitarist and drummer are brothers, the keyboardist is my uncle) So anyway they don't let me do anything really. Although I set up our myspace site (www.myspace.com/pikestation) and they acted like that was a huge deal. Ok I don't know what to do. I am so down and distrout about this. Its just driving me nuts. We have to play again thursday and I really just want to tell them its my last show. I don't want to hang them out to dry like that though and I don't want to quit really but I just am not happy right now. Anyway, there was no point to this rant really just some venting. Thank you very much for listening! I appreciate it.