Maybe some of you have noticed that I've been posting a lot lately. I've had a lot of free time, much to my dismay. To make a long story short, for the past 18 years I've worked with persons with mental retardation, and although I work with all functioning levels, the house to which I am currently assigned is a locked forensic unit. Allegations of abuse or neglect by these "clients" are fairly frequent, and all of us have been on administrative leave at one time or another. Currently I am on my 10th week of A.L. for some pretty serious (untrue) allegations. We do get paid for straight time during investigations, but half of my income is from overtime. Without going into all of the gory details I'm concerned because this is a heck of a long time to be out, and there is a real possibility i could get fired for something I didn't do. There is a chance of getting the job back, but that is a lengthy process with legal fees. Additionally, my child support and alimony is quite high, and my own bills have been racking up. I really can't get a job during my normal working hours, (I'm supposed to be available) and finding any sort of work with no idea of how long I'll be available is a bit difficult. Another concern is that I have a pretty high income, and with no other experience I wouldn't be able to come anywhere near to replacing it. Not that I live lavishly, the cost of living in CT is high, I'm already living on "oodles of noodles" and contemplating bankruptcy. I've already sold quite a bit of gear, (Eden WT-400 still available - ), but I'm getting close to the bare bones setup i need to keep gigging, (which is an income source for me). Needless to say I've been getting pretty depressed, and the antidepressants i take normally aren't cutting it, (I see the shrink tomorrow). I guess I never expected to be in such dire straits at 36. Sorry if this sounded too much like crying or an attention getting "sob story", that's not my intent. Just venting i guess.