Sorry for starting one of THESE threads, but I feel like real crap right now. I use to have hardcore depression, and I am once again dancing in and out of it. And due to the fact that things are piling up on me college wise and whatnot, I'm often more depressed than not as of late. I went on Zoloft for a while, it worked, then it just stopped working. Then it made me really sad that my happiness was coming from a pill (I know it's not really the case but...). This inspired me to stop taking pills, and I felt great. It was fantastic, real happiness, not even happiness, I felt normal. Something I hadn't felt in 3-4 years. It was amazing, but now I'm slinking back into depression. Background info: I should be by all standards a metally healthy person. My parents stay together/love each other. I was never beaten, normal childhood. I had problems, but everyone had little problems, you have to deal, nothing traumatic though. Now: I constantly want to sleep, I'm sad unless I'm happy which is often artificial. But I still have fun, and I get happy so I'm not as depressed as I was, but I feel I'm getting worse. I do often feel suicidal, it comes with the teritory. But I'd never act anything out. I'm so subserviant to others, the fact that it would emotionally kill some people, I could never do it. Once again, I apologize for doing one of these thread. I'm sure I did this last depression bout as well. Sorry. So what do you think (see poll)?