Back in May I had to leave my band (all originals) because they were intent on playing lots of out of town shows and I just don’t have the vacation time or even ability to get away from my job enough to do that. Plus I’m 43 years old and married with a mortgage/bills/etc. Just not reasonable for me to do that. Since then I’ve been trying to keep myself busy playing alone at home even picked up the guitar again but it’s not the same. There doesn’t seem to be anything out there that fit as well as my old band and it hurts they thought nothing of moving on without me. Like shaking off a cold. I don’t want to play covers. That’s just not a good time for me. I liked the creative aspect. The original bands I’m seeings ads for that needs players are bad and/or not what I’d like to play (indie, post-rock, etc). There’s also the issue of my inability to tour making a good match hard to find. Plus, do I want to go through all this again to play to empty rooms again? I miss the guys I was playing with (they don’t feel likewise... got a new bassist within a week or two). I miss getting out of the house one or two times a week for practice or gigs. I’m a terrible writer (alone... good at writing bass parts to songs though) and can’t sing so putting together my own project isn’t feasible. I spent a decent amount putting together a killer rig for this band and now it’s collecting dust. It just feels like I’m playing out the string now and it’ll be work/eat/sleep/work/eat/sleep from here on out. Just discouraged and needed to rant.