So yea, I'm a "music education major" playing sax (and now I don't know WHAT I would like to play). Or at least that's what I've been working with. I came to WPU in Jersey from a small community college (also in Jersey). Around the third or fourth semester, I had my doubts of whether I'd get out with all the theory and ear training and onto "bigger better things." I've spent two semesters in this new place. Two, of which have caused me now, thanks to the "seemless transfer system" (seems like I carried the role of less than a music major, and oddly enough, I majored my associates in just that) to lose a year's worth of theory and ear training work and all of two years of lessons in piano and sax, which I have to make up now. I really love the lack of standardization across the board within the system, because now I get to drink excessively and question my future because all the while I've been here, it's been nothing but work (which to a degree it should be), and I feel like I'm in a hole socially, mentally, and musically. That and the fact I get to hear from especially rich 18 year olds "you should be playing 8-10 hours a day; my aunt and uncles which are both extremely accomplished music majors used to do that" on a regular basis, when between full days of class and the work I have to do on the side, I hardly find the will in the day to play for TWO. My sax teacher is a professed pompous ******* who on a regular day will find about 5 things for open range criticism, and it doesn't help that the first semester I was so consumed with spending all other times than the lesson day inebriated, so I'm fighting constantly to rise above in order to pass my NEW FRESHMAN JURY. He's an OK guy, he tries to put a bit of confidence on my shoulders, but that's once in a blue moon. So far, at about the age of 22, as I'm working through things, the only place I'm finding my own peace of mind is with my band, "The Bludgeoning" (www.myspace.com/thebludgeoningnj I'm playing bass), and even that is diminishing before my eyes as everything is much more complicated with distance set between the three of us (although we have a few perks, like the recording session the week after easter, so i guess things might get better with that). I find it difficult to want to wake up nowadays as I have literally lost it. I'm so far in that I can't leave it, and I'm so far out, that I can't even contemplate how I will survive four more years of college. I've went from 190 to 260-270 in the course of three years. I study noise now. There's hardly an outlet for rock in this school as there's lines drawn everywhere between the "jazz vs classical saga" and the music management and sound engineers. What would you do?