Played a bar gig last night, and I didn't hit the way I am capable. Played with these guys plenty of times, wrote down a cheat sheet for one song out of 50, no train wrecks or anything, just careless mistakes and that weirdness where your discomfort on stage throws your technique for a loop. I've been playing 16 years, hold a music degree from a well known school and have played Hiromi and Feraud tunes in fusion combos, but a little rock gig made me feel like an amateur. Ive picked it apart, and found I could have fixed these things 1. Played some of the tunes I knew but hadn't played recently to review a little better 2. I was surrounded by TVS and may have zoned out (un-pro) On the plus side, I had fun and a bassist in the audience loved my tone. I just couldnt help driving home thinking "should I be doing this"? Reminds me of Lee Sklar driving to a gig saying "please don't suck". Sometimes it seems to me there is no amount of practice to avoid an off night.