My motivation has just fallen off the damn hill and struck a few bumps on the way down. Even after my first professional lesson, I still am in this playing funk. Nothing sounds good. I can't seem to hit anything do I feel able to concentrate long enough to practice my left hand technique. It's quite annoying. I bought a new bass with hopes it might inspire me to play more. New gear can do that. If it feels good, you want to touch it. Must destroy credit cards. I have always found it very hard to give full attention on practicing technique, theory and music in general. It's a horrible feeling, really. It makes you think as if you have this plastic ambition. You fake your way through it all. Your basic understanding isn't enough to pull you through. It must come from within and I am not quite sure how to tap it. I know recently I said I was going to avoid bands, but I am starting to realize it is a bad idea. I need to jam with people, even if I stink. As long as those I am jamming with can deal with it, it's positive work and practice. Both my last bands did that. But weird little personality kinks messed it all up. It couldn't just be about the music. That's all I want. I WANT OUT OF THIS FUNK!!!