Hello everyone, this will be a long post, so bear with me: I am in my senior year of high school, and I was personally recommended to participate in a major drama/musical production this year by the head music teacher, who has since moved on to pursue her own musical aspirations. Basically, the school's dramatic arts teacher (whom I had never spoken with) told me that I had been recommended for the part based on my abilities displayed in music class last year. This was a big deal for me, obviously. Being recommended out of absolutely nowhere for something that you are passionate about? Dream come true. The first rehearsal was promising, they band leader that the school hired to accompany the drama production was also told that I was the recommended candidate for the job, and we were excited to work with each other. He told me that this was the most major production that our school has been involved with in years, and I could expect to play with a full orchestra for a series of 4 back-to-back performances. Flash forward a month or so: No such "full orchestra" exists. Our band consists of two trumpet players, a flautist, myself on electric bass, and our band leader who plays piano at rehearsals but will only be conducting during the performances. It's a sorry excuse for a band that is involved with a large dramatic production, to say the absolute least. Rehearsing once a week for 45 minutes is another big disappointment, it's not nearly enough. That's not the entire problem though, because I am finding that I am not exactly up to the task either. I know how to read sheet music effectively, and I've worked with band leaders several times, but I think the expectation for the musicians was set a bit too high this time. It personally takes me a lot of time to internalize sheet music, and I prefer to memorize as much as possible so I can watch the conductor for the cues. I don't even have a drummer to lock in with, so my attention to the conductor really seems to be overpowering my ability to internalize the music. It's becoming very stressful and I'd prefer to not be associated with a failure of 4 musicians without a complete rhythm section attempting to support 50+ actors. Of course, the big dilemma comes with the fact that I was personally recommended by someone who I've worked with in other productions and gained a lot of respect for. Quitting would be a major disappointment, but I am quite literally unable to take this seriously or perfect my skills at all. I've performed live with many groups, played many different genres, and it is my passion to do so. I've never turned down a gig. Music is a source of pride and passion for me, and in this case it is letting me down big time. How would you guys go about putting and end to this? With a few things in mind: 1. The personal recommendation and the respect that comes with it. 2. The fact that only 4 musicians were able to accept the challenge, meaning that the drama teacher needs all the help she can get. 3. The 50+ actors who are (apparently) rehearsing very well and are looking forward to a great show, even though they aren't aware of the sorry state that the band is in. 4. My own personal struggle and, ultimately, my inability to live up to the expectation. Sorry for the extremely long post, but all your help is appreciated!