Well today me and my mom took Mr. Red to the Vet since in the last two months it went downhill pretty quickly with him, he didn't eat anymore, became really skinny, had difficulty just walking around and basically wasn't himself anymore. The doctor said that it was kidney failure and that there was nothing he could do other than to put him asleep since letting him die the natural way would be too painful for him Mom then told me since I was his owner that it was up to me and as I stood there with him in my arms at the vet's office I had to decide. I gave him a hug and told them that I needed a moment alone. I stood there outside the office with a heavy heart before making my decision. I walked inside and told the doctor "Go ahead, I don't want him to suffer anymore." Mom asked me if I wanted to say goodbye, to hold him one last time but I couldn't, I just couldn't. I told her that I'd be walking home and said with my voice breaking "Tot ziens gekke kat, ik zal je zo erg missen." I'm sitting here in that same chair on the pictures, there's a little pluck of his hair still there and the realization that he's no longer there is just so painful.