So I'm sittin' here in San Diego...

Discussion in 'Off Topic [BG]' started by miko, Nov 17, 2003.

  1. ...pulling my hair out in my hotel room and wondering why i'm even here.

    i got flown out here by a company interested in having me write their president's autobiography.[as in, a book]. i answered an ad they ran looking for a writer with knowledge of the liquor industry, which i have.

    turns out the head of the company, an eccentric gazillionaire [why am i always getting hooked in with eccentric gazillionaires?] wants someone to pen his memoirs.

    so they flew me out here, and here's how my interview went:

    Enter mansion, remove overcoat.

    [greeted by personal staff]

    "Mr. _______ will see you now. His bedroom is two doors down on the left."


    I enter said bedroom, and there is Mr. ______, all 84 years of him, propped up in a hospital bed, and smoking a cigar. a picasso, a chagall and a klimt [the real deals] are hanging askew above his bed. I take a closer look to make sure he is breathing.

    "Hello, Mr. ______. A pleasure to meet you. Thank you for inviting me here."

    "Yah. You know, we had 198 applications, and you are one of two people I asked to see. "

    "Well, thank you. I feel honored."

    "Yah. What'd you score on your SATs?"

    [me, obviously dumbfounded. i barely scored 800, if i recall correctly.]

    "Ah... that's so long ago! I believe around 1200 or 1300. Yes, that's about right."

    "Yah. Well, if you'd have scored 1600, you'd remember, right?"


    "Do you know who made that hanging thing over there? [points to glass mobile above the wetbar in his bedroom].


    "Who's the most famous modern mobile artist? Who?"


    "It's an original by [I still don't remember the artist's name, even though Mr. ____ said it twice]"

    "Mmmm. It's beautiful. [dang! why didn't i study art history????]

    "Yah. Ok... Jeff! Take her outside. Have her look over the first two chapters of the book and see what she can do. Goodbye. Nice meeting you."

    And that was my interview.

    Jeff the assistant then escorts me to the infinity pool and hands me two chapters of a manuscript. i stare at it, and am overcome by the urge to run away. i am tired, cold [it's chilly in the mountains], jetlagged and have to pee. and the manuscript is really bad. i want to cry.

    Instead I say, "You know... there are a lot of things I'd like to discuss about these chapters, but i'd like to talk them over with Mr. _____. He's sleeping now, so maybe it's best if I take this to my hotel room and mull it over there."

    Blah, blah, blah, and they drive me to the hotel, where I proceed to whig out.

    This job is one of those weird professional/personal type of arrangements where you work for/are owned by/an eccentric zillionaire, who pays you a lot of money but drives you nuts.

    the big downside [and upside, too], is that it's 8 months in california, and 4 months in new york. which means i'd be away from my man of 8 years, for 8 months.


    two weeks ago, when i got the call, i thought it would be cool to live on both coasts, and seeing as i've seen my boyfriend every single day for 8 years, and almost 24 hours a day for the past 3 years that i lost my job, it would be a nice healthy separation. and the money would be good, so i could visit ny once a month.

    but i didn't expect that i'd miss him as much as i do. and it's only been a day.


    and i definitely did not expect to be asked to write 2 book chapters with no notification, while i am jetlagged. my ass's been up since 3 a.m. east coast time. i have no ideas!!!!

    on top of this, i don't like the hotel i'm in. it's separate units that face the street directly, and i don't feel safe. i like to be in an enclosed building with a concierge. i feel like anyone could break in my room.

    but the bigger problem is i gotta write two chapters now. i'm eternally grateful the room has internet access, coz i felt so alone after the meeting. i feel like a real p*ssy for having all these doubts and fears, but it really was a weird trial by fire, so to speak.

    i called my dad and he told me to be strong and get the job done, and to not be a p*ssy about it, that i'd be fine, and that i've always wanted to write a book, so why am i whining now? well, he didn't say it quite that way, but close.

    so i just needed to spew coz i needed to connect with something that felt familiar. i'm sure i'll write the chapters, at least one. but i'm really tired and overwhelmed. it's not just the no sleep, but the bigger issue of relocating, doing something very different, and taking a risk vs. doing what's safe. i honestly never thought i was such a scaredy cat.


    oysh. i'm rambling.

  2. What are your insecurities?

    As a artist, all our worst worries is loss of creativity. If your assignment requires not much creativity and more tolerance for this person. Just keep thinking about the money and how it will help your career. Stay in touch with your life-mate as much as possible, long distance relationships suck. On your off days, make them count as you will struggle on your work days and have long eggated stress to relieve. Also remember to always get some good sleep, unless your creativity bursts out the seems and your on a roll, I find a night of no sleep that cures tons of great writing to be worth it. Just try to keep a positive mindset and enjoy as much as you can. Peace
  3. thats pretty weird. especially that he asked bout the sat lol. hope it all turns out for the best

    good luck
  4. MJ5150

    MJ5150 Terrific Twister

    Apr 12, 2001
    Lacey, WA
    dang.....for as much writing as you did here, you could have had part of the job done....

  5. mz91


    Apr 19, 2002
    Zug, Switzerland
    Im sorry it sounds like you are really confused about how to feel about this job. Well, its always hard at the beginning of doing something different. Im sure that it will only get better the longer you are there. Its naturall for the new environment and job to "scare" you somewhat.
    I really hope that everything goes well, and that your creativity comes back to you so you can complete the 2 chapters. I felt much like you do know when i left my parents to come to switzerland! :(
    Well, guess i can just wish you the best of luck. And say things can only get better.
    Do you have your bass with you? A little playing might make you feel better ;) .
  6. lump


    Jan 17, 2000
    St. Neots, UK
    Let me get this straight. You are complaining about spending eight well-paid months in one of the most beautiful cities in the world (my home turf, which I miss terribly, by the way), editing some old geezer's book. And you haven't seen your boyfriend for a whole DAY.

    .Lump- I see your point but lets keep it more civil.Thanx


    Tell you what. I'll trade. ANY DAY
  7. mz91


    Apr 19, 2002
    Zug, Switzerland
    Wow Lump,
    take a deep breath and think "calm" ;)
    To each his own bro....

  8. slugworth

    slugworth Banned

    Jun 12, 2003
    So. Calif.
    Maybe you should ask for more money.
  9. i wrote [not edited] the two chapters. they came out good.

    the bad news:

    it's illegal to have insecurities, be homesick or vent your confusion on

    who knew???

  10. Ty McNeely

    Ty McNeely

    Mar 27, 2000

    very witty reply, miko.

    Keep your chin up:D
  11. frankencow150

    frankencow150 Guest

    Oct 17, 2001
    Um yeah
  12. Gia


    Feb 28, 2001

  13. Brendan


    Jun 18, 2000
    Austin, TX
    I'm sorry, but I'm with lumperooni here.
  14. San Diego, and New York isn't that beautiful. It's actually hot or really cold with alot of unlikeable people and yuppies. Being an artist is hard with insecurities-we are unstable creatures. Show some compassion man, not everyone is secure and happy with their lives, it's not like we have direct messages from a diety that things will be alright. She is alone and in a new situation, I'm not suprised by her thoughts.
  15. miccheck1516

    miccheck1516 Guest

    Feb 15, 2003
    so lump, in your 50 years, you've never felt insecure? Never missed you wife, while you have been away from home, or she has been away????Never called your dad for a bit of advice?
    If that the way you live your life, Tell you what. I'll never trade. EVER.
    Because to me, you've just come off as an ignorant prat, but then thats only my opinion, and yeh, i do know what they say about opinions.
  16. Ty McNeely

    Ty McNeely

    Mar 27, 2000

    I could be wrong, but after knowing lump and knowing his posting habits, I believe he was simply playing a bit too harshly on miko's "TALK SOME SENSE INTO ME!!!" request.

    I really don't think he meant it too seriously:meh:
  17. NJL


    Apr 12, 2002
    San Antonio
    chill out - not everyone is perfect like you
  18. Mike Money

    Mike Money Banned

    Mar 18, 2003
    Bakersfield California
    Avatar Speakers Endorsing Hooligan
    Thats what you get for going to San Diego.
  19. NJL


    Apr 12, 2002
    San Antonio
  20. Yeah man San Diego sure sux. Sunny days 350 days a year, Mexico minutes away, L.A. just an hour away. Surfing and fish taco's. The mountains and skiing just an hour away. Blooming Deserts abound. Torrey Pines and the Palomar Mountains. Del Mar Fairgrounds and Racetrack. Balboa Park. Seaworld and the San DIego Zoo.
    Man how does anyone live there?
    I can definatly see how your being from NYC would make you feel unsafe in the hotbed of crime that San Diego is known for.
    You know I hear McDonalds is hiring....
    Time for a Karl Strauss brew and a show at the Casbah:)