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Sorry I suck... but I do... I really suck

Discussion in 'Off Topic [BG]' started by Matt Till, Jan 5, 2005.


  1. Matt Till

    Matt Till

    Jun 1, 2002
    Edinboro, PA
    ... and I'm sorry.

    I've noticed a lot of hate cast in the direction of the ol' Matt bone this days, and I couldn't figure out why for the longest time... but now it's very apparent...

    I SUCK!

    It's amazing it took me this long to figure it out, but now that I know, it feels that a weight has been lifted off my shoulder.

    Why do I suck (more than usual). It's been a really really tough time for me right now. As you know, my dad has cancer... and it's getting worse. It was once lung and brain. Now it's Lung, Brain, Bone (hip), and Adrenal. Bad Ass. The Kemo wasn't doing jack, so he went to Chicago specialist center. Now, he doesn't have to get Kemo. He's starting a pill that replaces kemo (I'm probably spelling "Kemo" wrong, but bear with me) so his life is going to get a lot easier.

    Plus we heard this story about this guy who was a hundred times worse than my dad, but in a similar state, took these pills. Two weeks later, the hospital gets a call, the dude was back at work! :hyper: It's given my family much needed hope.

    Next on the agenda... my dad isn't the only sick/dying person around. Nobody family (yet) but my g/f's grandpa had shoulder surgery, friends of mine have dying/sick relatives... and bad news was coming from everywhere. But it's clearing up a bit.

    Next... NEW Puppy. Sounds joyus blah blah.. but housetraining sucks. But it turns out she had worms, so we're taking care of that.

    Plus one of the biggest, quite a bit of self hatred. I'm not finding people to start bands with/make music with, and I've stated this before but... music is my life. Without music, I wouldn't have life. I make my own music and I'm getting better about thinking about things polyphonicly (real word? I dunno?). So I figure, I'm improving myself so when I do find the right oppertunity, I'll be good... I hope I hope I hope. Plus I have a growing interest in production, I'd like to own a studio one day and produce local musicians CDs/promos. I have a lot of fun with that stuff.

    So things are lightening up, so I hope I lighten up. I'm a rather opinionated person, and when I'm mad I find my opinons coming across as "rules" or something of that nature, so in conclusion.


    Sorry I suck, I'm very legit about this, I know I've pissed some people off on this board, and for that I apologize. I don't not like anyone on this board. Talkbass has helped me in ways I don't think I could ever comprehend, and we all are talkbass (*"We are the World" playing in the background*). When I'm not learning something, I'm LMAOing or LOLing or NRLBA (not really laughing... but amused). I've discovered so much new music as well, some of the best by TBers. I could continue this rant, but if anyone has read this far. I feel sorry for them, so I'm going to end it now.

    I suck.
     
  2. No you don't. Life is not always easy or fair. I can tell in your post that you love your father and his situation is having its impact on you. Just keep doing you best to keep a positive outlook and helping your dad stay strong. I really hope the chemo pills work for your dad. I just watched my grandmother (she raised me so she is really my mom) go through chemotherapy, and there may be some radiation down the road. It is a tough thing to watch, and I know you want to help but feel powerless. Try to stay positive.
     
  3. Matt, you worry too much, and read into things too much (here).

    Sorry to hear about your Dad, and hope for the best with that.

    All things in due time on the music front, just don't give up...

    You don't suck, carry on....
     
  4. Josh Ryan

    Josh Ryan - that dog won't hunt, Monsignor. Staff Member Supporting Member

    Mar 24, 2001
    Sorry your having a tough go of it right now Matt.

    At any rate, I don' hate you.
     
  5. DigMe

    DigMe

    Aug 10, 2002
    Waco, TX
    Hey man... I follow the playa's code and hate the game...not you.

    Seriously though...seems like your feeling the weight of a lot of things. Sorry to hear about all that. I haven't noticed any particularly azzwholeian behavior out of you myself.

    On another subject...you have a cute, new puppy and haven't posted pictures?! You suck.

    brad cook
     
  6. Marlat

    Marlat

    Sep 17, 2002
    London UK
    This might cheer you up:
    [​IMG]
     
  7. DigMe

    DigMe

    Aug 10, 2002
    Waco, TX
    That's got to be one of the best "show yourself" photos ever posted.

    brad cook
     
  8. Matt Till

    Matt Till

    Jun 1, 2002
    Edinboro, PA
    ... or scare the hell out of me...


    j/k Gia. In that picture, Gia looks incredibly like the girl who gets all half naked and sexual suggestive in the metal video I helped make. (Who wants to see the video NOW ;) )
     
  9. DigMe

    DigMe

    Aug 10, 2002
    Waco, TX
    Suddenly I can't stop thinking about sumo wrestling.

    brad cook
     
  10. Marlat

    Marlat

    Sep 17, 2002
    London UK
    Gia's not going to be happy when she reads that you think of sumo wrestling when you think of her half naked and sexually suggestive....... :eek:
     
  11. RicPlaya

    RicPlaya

    Apr 22, 2003
    Whitmoretucky MI
    Go easy on yourself bro! That's a lot to deal with. You and I never bumped heads on TB, under the circumstances I think everyone won't have a problem cutting you a little slack. Just don't make a hibit of it..LOL. I hope your dad gets better!!!
     
  12. LoL
    Give her a double bass and shes good to go oh maybe blue eyes and blonde hair opps :D
     
  13. embellisher

    embellisher Holy Ghost filled Bass Player Staff Member Supporting Member

    Don't be Stupid, Matt.;)


    Seriously, you are a contributing member to this Forum. I look forward to reading your posts, because you have a slightly twisted sense of humor.

    I will remember your Dad in my prayers.
     
  14. DigMe

    DigMe

    Aug 10, 2002
    Waco, TX
    :eek: :scowl:

    brad cook
     
  15. Now THERE'S a t-shirt slogan if ever I saw one.:D

    Go easy on yourself. We all have problems at one time or another. Be glad your dad in on a new drug, have fun with your puppy, and go out and buy Reason and start composing!! See? I just made your life better.

    Or, go get a girlfriend. It's not that hard. If I can do it (and in no way am I any sort of prize) you can, too.

    Rock on
    Eric
     
  16. Haha I would SO where a shirt with that printed on it! :D :hyper:
     
  17. Send me $10 bucks and I'll make you one.

    Rock on
    Eric
     
  18. " Carry on Wayward Matt Till, There will be music and cured dad when you are done , lay your weary bass to rest, dontcha suck no more"

    Just a little diddy i wrote for times like these ;) :D :D


    But seriously , i hope your dad gets better and your life in general.
     
  19. Wrong Robot

    Wrong Robot Guest

    Apr 8, 2002
    Refer to my signature.
     
  20. MAJOR METAL

    MAJOR METAL HARVESTER OF SORROW Staff Member Supporting Member

    Matt

    It might not seem like it right now but their is allways hope in the future. God Bless you.