Don't worry--it only sounds like it's painful! Synesthesia is a peculiar mental..."condition," I guess, where two cognitive phenomena get jangled up together. Why do I bring this up? I'm a synesthete! I see letters and numbers in "color." I have my whole life. One of my earliest pre-school memories was looking at the alphabet poster in the top of the wall and seeing the colors of the letters, right when I looked at it. It's very difficult to describe. I know that these letters I am typing are simply black, but my mind kind of superimposes its seemingly arbitrary coloring system over it. And it's very real! I first realized that what I have is unique (although it is the most common type of synesthesia) when I asked when I was maybe six or seven my older brother which colors corresponded to the first ten numbers, starting at zero. ...He thought I was weird. But I didn't realize that this had a name until a year and a half ago when I saw an article about something called "synesthesia" in Scientific American. (www.sciam.com) ...Although I took some of the tests and didn't pass. Which is odd, because I know that I have what they were describing. (And quite a few people think that "5" is red, too!) Here is a link with more information: http://web.mit.edu/synesthesia/www/synesthesia.html I think it's pretty neat.