"but we can never be any more then that" i talked to the girl i obcess over on thursday night for several hours, and she told me that she loves me. that i make her feel safe and secure, that she wants to be my friend for the rest of her life, that she can always talk to me about anything and that i'm her best friend. "but we can never be any more than that" i kinda knew this was coming, but being made to face it was horrible. i started bawling right then and there. i almost threw up. i hadn't let myself think about it really until today. i've just been crying and trying to escape from the sadness all weekend. turns out i can't smoke my problems away. obviously this isn't really the place for this, but i'm venting. argh. sorry all; i'm just really upset and angry at myself right now.