Veronica and I had been together almost 13 years, somehow we stuck together despite the demons she had been wrestling inside her. Early this morning I got up, walked into the living room, and found her dead on the floor. She evidently had died during the night, she was well past the point of CPR. 1000 pills could not heal the physical pain her body had been suffering, but evidently her body just could not endure one more pill. Goddamn the disease of addiction!! I do not know when if ever I will be able to play music again. The house and everything in it is suddenly full of painful memories. I'm now alone with the dog and cat, they have been going from room to room wondering where Mommy is.