This is just my I'm absolutely sure that I'm doing the wrong thing with my life thread. I put it in Misc because Misc is for music related issues and that's what my life should be... music. All day I dream not of being a rock star, not of gettin' the bitches drinking all the whiskey I can and headbanging, but of writing music... being in a band. I want to sit at home and write original music all day long but I can't... all my free time is taken up by this sham of a life I'm leading... an art kid. I'm a photography major... why? Because the music program said I wasn't good enough. They said I'd have to go through music training before becoming a major... huh? Isn't that the point of college, to learn about what you love. I could do things their way, but I'm past the point of no return with my photo major. But I feel I'd be a lousy photographer with my heart only half into it. And when I get free time, I'm either tired, other things come up (social life), or I'm uninspired. I need creative people to help me along the way, because I hate mediocre music. I cannot write a song using only G, D, and A and singing, "oh baby, I love you baby, baby baby." On top of that, my girlfriends computer has been screwing up (that's what I record on). I don't really care about making a family (though I'm, I hate to use the term, but "tied down" with a girlfriend), I don't care about being a photographer, I don't care about money. I just want to be able to do what I love. I know: Put up flyers, get in the local music scene, find people who wanna make music and do it. I'm scared. I'm scared as hell. I don't know why, but it's the hardest thing to make that first step, that's why i want to write some tunes and be able to say, THIS is what I want to do (ala Captian Strange). Don't take this as some idiotic teenage I wanna be a rockstar rant: Because that's exactly what it is. What's the point of this thread... nothing.