i arrived at work late yesterday. i took 3 hours off to be able to say good bye to company leaving. it was approved. so anyway, i arrived to work at 11 in the morning. i walk in to a situation. i work in a residential group home. anyway, it turns out that a resident while getting a puzzle got into the contraband box (a box we store things the kids can not have), and stole another residents pager. it was found. when i walked in it was reported to me. well, i told the staff to call the coordinator to let them know and do an SIR (serious incident report) and theft charges. this resident is constantly stealing from the other kids adn nothing gets done. well, we were not allowed to do the SIR or charges. i hate lying, i hate a liar. well, i had to lie to the other resident when asked if we found the pager that was stolen. i had to tell her it was never stolen and it is in the box. how i hated saying that. if i told her it was stolen and the higher ups said to do nothing, all hell would have broken out. so that was strike one, i am so against liars, so against lying to a kid, i had to break my own code of ethics to keep peace. well, then this same resident who stole, decided to run away. we did up the papers, police, so on. the police found the resident after 2 hours. returned resident. well, again higher ups said no petition for running, just SIR. hmmmmm, now if anyone even steps out the door to get air without permission, they get a charge for running. so okay, i am angry about this now. well, that is not all. this same resident comes in with an attitude from hell. now staff, we have been telling higher ups and therapist she is a ticking time bomb. ok. well, during a group session, this kid jumps out of her seat, starts cursing a resident, for no reason i may add, the other resident was talking to another resident quietly, the one who jumped up decided it was about her. it wasn't. staff was there. i was there. anyway, she jumps up, starts cursing this other resident, runs and starts beating the hell out of her. we got her off of her, she hit me twice. well, she goes to residents room and tries to attack this resident again. staff is in the middle. refuses to let her get to her. phone rings, higher up. i called to tell them what is going on, hung up on them when another staff yelled for help. anyway, they call back. i sent other staff to talk to higher up, this resident decides to go attack the other staff. now in all this the resident is screaming, cursing, threatening our lives and the other residents life. well, she runs up, i ran in between them telling other staff to get in the office and shut the door. to protect other staff. well, resident blocked doorway leading to office. well, she got around me, slammed the other staff, i got between, got slammed 2 more times trying to protect this staff. i get the other staff in the office with door shut and locked. she is talking to higher up while all this is happening, even getting hit. resident tries to run to residents room, she has door shut, i got there first, put myself between door and this kid. well, finally got her in the other office and barricaded the door so she could not get out. higher up said to call the police, this is a very volatile situation and 2 of her staff has been hit and a resident has been attacked. we call police. higher up said to press charges, 3 assault. so we did. kid was taken to hospital to see if she needed to be put in mental hospital for a few days. not juvenile or detention. ok, no problem. she is gone, staff and other residents are safe, she is gone. well, i call today to find out when the arraignment is, and the higher up, above the other one, starts yelling. she does NOT want this to go to court. does not want petitions and assault charges done on this kid. this kid has had a hard life, and does not know any better. BULL. this kid has been there for 2 months, has threatened to kill somebody everyday. not an excuse. we get kids from extremely hard lives, hell i lived one, this is not an excuse. she is going to be brought back to the group home. now, the kid she attacked is going to see that nothing is going to be, she feels threatened already, and will be extremely angry nothing is going to be done. this kid, if she even looks at someone wrong gets punished for everything. now, two staff were hit. other residents are going to see that nothing will happen if you hit staff and threaten to kill them. what is the message, do what you want to staff, nothing will happen. hmmmmmmm. now, this also makes it a very unsafe environment for all staff and for our other residents. this kid will now know nothing at all ever will be done, just like the other times, and will go all out and do this again, worse next time maybe. i have thought about leaving before, however, now, i think this has done it. i can not work in an environment that will let things like this happen and do nothing. if it was our higher higher up that got hit, you can bet your butts she would be thrown in juvie for a long time. it is, screw the staff and screw the residents. oh i am so angry. sorry so long. i need to make some decisions, i have two children of my own i have to be here for, and can not let anything happen to me. yet, i love my job, i love working with the kids, they are like my own kids. i put so much into them, so much love and care, i love teaching them, guiding them, seeing them leave and make it out there. and yes, i even love the kid who did all that. i am just very angry right now and do not want to make the wrong decisions while in this mode.