my best friend (the girl i'm in love with...i've spoken about her before) has been trying to help me for some while. she was really upset when she found out about my problem (masichism) and has been helping me... she made me promise to always me honest when she asks if i've cut. i'd been doing really well, but i kinda had a breakdown this week, and i told her what i did to myself. and now she says this in her livejournal: while i'm really upset that it seems like she's giving up on me, i really can't blame her. i screwed everything up again. just like always.