today was the schools talent show. me and two other friends had planned to play in it about a month ago but we had found out that all the slots were taken so we had stopped practicing, but the drummer was still going to play with another band for the show. today i find out that i am playing in the talent show. i am completely unprepared. i had to call my dad to get my guitar, and i had to use the other bassists amp. also, i havent played the song in over 3 weeks. keep in mind that the drummer wasnt that good to begin with. i always had to help him with the breakdowns and beats in the song. anyways, i didnt want to let them down so i agreed to play, despite my gut feeling that it was going to turn out bad...which it did. all my friends were rooting for me when the whole skool started to pile in. i knew that it was going to suck because the drummer was gunna mess it up. we had about 5 minutes to practice before show time so i had to remember everything that i had made up about a month ago for this one freakin song. we start playing, and right away it starts bad. the drummer misses the start beat to go into the heavier part of the song and the guitarist is doind crap that we hadnt practiced even the month before. since they were doin wierd things it made me get off beat and made me look stupid. this got me so nervous that my fingers locked up and i couldnt move them like normal, so i couldnt play as well. the drummer even messed up on parts of the other bands songs that he was playin with. but for some reason his friends think hes awesome... anyways, they played songs like "scotty doesn't know" and the rock version of "crazy train" and the rap version of it as "lets go". so they played all covers and we played one original song. i think this obviously made the crowd like them better because they knew the songs they were playing as opposed to ours. if we had had a better drummer, we could have played so many more songs. when it was finally over, everyone clapped but i knew it sucked. it made me like a sucky musician and was extremely embarrassing. i felt bad that all the teachers who were musicians that i respect had to see me suck and i feel like they will not think as highly of me as before. same thing goes for my musician friends. i think i may have lost my repuatation as a good musician. some kids were honest and said it was bad but tried to consol me. others put on the "no it wasnt bad, it was really good" mode. all in all, im really embarassed and pissed. i know that if i had been more prepared and was notified ahead of time, like at least the day before, i would have played soooo much better. and i think that if i tell all my friends and teachers the reasons why we sucked so bad, it will seem like i am just trying to make up excuses. sorry for such a long post, but i feel so bad.