The world eats me alive. I try and I try and I get no where. Maybe I have gone as far as I can at my age. It just doesn't feel like enough. I study my ass off at school and I still only get 60's. I study so hard in my last science class I had. I finished with a 55%. My last math class. I was like I need to step up. No more crappy marks. I finshed with a 50%.
What did I get written on my report card?
"James is capable of better work"
what do I get written on all my report cards?
"James can do better if he trys"
Can I really do better? I'm starting to second guess my self.
I'm reading old report cards. "James can do better". 1,3,5,10 years latter. I'm not doing any better.
Read your words over again...slowly. Listen to what you are telling yourself about you. Yeah, you are telling us here...but read your words again and think hard about
what you are telling yourself.
Also, think about this... We attract what we think about. Our life becomes what we think it to be.
All you have is the NOW. Not the past, Not the future. The NOW. What you are, what your life is right NOW is what you thought it to be in the past. Whether that was a thought 2 seconds ago, or 10 years ago, it doesn't matter.
You have total control over your life. Not some control. TOTAL control. What do you want to be a minute from now? How about ten years from now? What you think about you NOW affects what you will become.
Read your words again and consider this. You
say you want to be a certain way, yet your
feelings contradict what you say. You don't believe what you say, and so your life is, and will become, what you believe it to be.
You can tell yourself, over and over again that you will do better in school, have more friends and you will be happy. But if you do not believe it to be, it will not be.
What you truly believe yourself to be is what will manifest in your life. Again, don't believe me. Look at your life for proof. Don't look at what you've said, look at what you've believed and your life will be proof of it. Your life will become what you believe it will. And it has. So it will.
If you believe you are unhappy, or that you don't deserve to be happy (pick any reason why, it doesn't matter), and that is exactly what will manifest in your life. Your life is the living proof of your thought.
Your thoughts about your life are not a
result of what has happened in your life (reaction). It's the other way around. Your life is a result of your thoughts (action).
Whatever you do, don't dwell on what you
don't want. Doing so is the same thing as wanting it because resisting something causes you to think about it and your thoughts manifest themselves into your life.
Dwell on
what you want, whatever it is. Believe you already have it and you will. Because you already have everything you could ever desire. It's only your thinking that is limiting you. Think of all the things we humans have designed to be. There was a time when humans thought it impossible to fly, or to land a man on the moon. Those things didn't magically appear out of nowhere. We humans willed them into existence by our thought and belief, which brought about the action to make it so. And so it is with the design of your life. We willed ourselves to land on the moon, but you can't do something as simple as will yourself (through thought and belief) to be happy?
Don't tell yourself you
want to be happy. Tell yourself, "
I AM happy." There is a huge difference between the two. One is lip service, one is belief. Tell yourself, "
I AM happy" and it will be so.
CAVEAT: Most people who "try" this fail because they don't get immediate results, and thus don't believe it. It is not something you try...it is a way of living. Or they see some results, only to have something come crashing down around them that they feel pulls the rug out from under their belief. It works, always. It works for both the good and the bad equally. The Laws of the Universe are unfailing. They cannot even be a fraction off or the universe would cease to exist. If something negative happens in your life, trust that you have brought it there. It is part of your journey in life to find out why. Everything in life is to be experienced. Be grateful for it ALL, for there is a lesson in it that will make you even happier if you learn it well.
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