Since 2010 I've been a lab rat because of an ongoing battle with multiple myeloma, a platelet cancer. I had been at zero since late 2012 showing a "complete response to treatment" and I requested removal from maintenance drugs (napalm) because it messed my internals and I was zeroed out. Earlier this spring my blood work was showing a detectable but not quite quantifiable return of certain proteins that meant the myeloma was creeping back. Levels have risen since then so, we gotta go try and kill it off again. Problem is, my body's the battlefield.
So, Wednesday, I get to start napalming myself again. The readings are a smolder rather than stage III when I began treatment back in 2010 so the dosage and the damage is not nearly as dire. I'm bummed as uncertainty not so much for outcome as what shall this bombardment will do to my internals and being able to perform continually at a somewhat busy schedule allows. I'm going forward anyway and looking forward to many more mornings, practices and murdering Bach among other notations. Hey people, I didn't learn to read notation 'till I was 49, you can do it too!
The first round of visits will be supervised and after a while, I'll be choking down napalm from home.
Do be like me, take your doctor visits seriously and remember we're physiological beings, with cells that at times, can and will rebel. So pay attention to yourselves but don't deny yourself a chocolate donut.
So, Wednesday, I get to start napalming myself again. The readings are a smolder rather than stage III when I began treatment back in 2010 so the dosage and the damage is not nearly as dire. I'm bummed as uncertainty not so much for outcome as what shall this bombardment will do to my internals and being able to perform continually at a somewhat busy schedule allows. I'm going forward anyway and looking forward to many more mornings, practices and murdering Bach among other notations. Hey people, I didn't learn to read notation 'till I was 49, you can do it too!
The first round of visits will be supervised and after a while, I'll be choking down napalm from home.
Do be like me, take your doctor visits seriously and remember we're physiological beings, with cells that at times, can and will rebel. So pay attention to yourselves but don't deny yourself a chocolate donut.