I'm gonna need all the help I can get in trying to quit smoking. Been smoking for longer than some of you are alive. To my utter amazement, I had a chest scan done last year with my physical....and all was fine!! They said my lungs look a bit "junky" but there was no sign of anything that shouldn't be there. But I know that doesn't mean than something can't develop either. I'm actually surprised that I'm still alive. My blood work, EKG, blood pressure and all that all came back with great results.
I smoke a pack a day, but when I'm in situations where I know I can't smoke I'm fine. If I go to my parents house for 6 to 8 hours I have no problem with cravings. But when home for that amount of time I'll smoke about 5 cig's. (Outside, of course). I work in a big CNC machine shope and while We aren't suppose to smoke at work I'm on night's and all the smokers light up once the coast is clear. But I have been smoking outside and during the 12 hour work night I'll smoke about 8 cig's.
Smoking is the only bad habit I have and I know a lot of it has to do with boredom. I get very "antsy" very quick. Seems like the older I get (I'm 59) the more hyper I've gotten in some respects. I'm not the type to fly off the handle either...it's more of an internal restlessness for lack of a better way to put it. Simply put, I need to calm down and don't know how to do it because there is a lot of internal chaos within me and smoking does help to calm me down in some ways.
Believe it or not, smoking did cure me of something. From the time I was 10 until 20, I had eczema real bad. It was all up my arms, in my scalp and to this day the backs of my legs are still scarred from it. I went thru the tests, took the shot's, tried this and that ointment and salve and nothing worked. I was a total mess. I started smoking when I was 20 and two months later my eczema vanished! I mean, GONE and it's been gone. So it looks like smoking calmed me down to the point of ridding me of eczema. Safe to say I was a very nervous, insecure kid. In some ways that kid is still there.
Gang, I need help and bad. I know the facts and I've seen some horrible pictures of cancer survivors. Scared the crap out of me, made me quit for a while and then I was back at it. I'm already armed with a TON of sugerless candies to take to work with me tomorrow, so other than that and a lot of prayers (I do believe in prayer) I don't know what else to do.
Didn't mean to be so long here. Any suggestions would be more than appreciated.