Good day all;
This is as much a journal entry to remind myself of where I have been and where I am going. It took several hours to reflect on and write. If you care to read through it all know that I appreciate it. TLDR is at the bottom. The events that follow happen to correspond roughly with my time since joining this site although I do not directly blame this site for anything. It's fun to joke about GAS, but seriously...
I'm sure this story could apply to the 'Basses' section as well. Perhaps a cautionary tale of just how successful company marketing departments can be? Know that I accept responsibility for my actions.
I guess I'm looking to get something off my chest. In November my wife and I welcomed our first child into the world. He was 5 weeks early but she and him are both doing OK now. We're in our mid 30's and have full time jobs, etc. There were complications in the pregnancy which (to make a long story short) means this was an expen$ive experience for us. This whole situation has caused me to do some soul searching when it comes to gear.
Rewind 10 years ago and I was getting ready to graduate from college and was gigging with some buddy's in a cover band about once a week. In terms of amps I had a Mesa MPulse 600 running thru a Mesa PH410. It was gloriously powerful and, to be honest, probably way overkill for any gig I ever did. I was responsible with it and didn't pi$$ off any neighbors or sound guys. The gear was bulletproof and the experience of being out gigging was something I'll never forget. Perhaps this is what leads to the next section.
Just as we started to get a small following and a steady flow of gigs my guitar player (an old friend from High School) got a promotion at work and I graduated as an elementary teacher soon to find work of my own. Nether of us could commit to the band any longer and the group dissolved. Being a new teacher with very little free time I decided to sell off my rig and pick up a small Behringer Thunderbird amp for practice. Over time I would still get together with my guitar buddy and former band mate at his apartment for an impromptu jam. Soon I traded in the Behringer for a USA Ampeg 1x12 combo (which he still has at his place to this day). Eventually we both get busier with work and he ends up moving into an 11th floor high rise down-town. No more jamming. Eventually I get better work-life balance and start GASing for an actual practice amp with good tone (I had been DI'ing straight into a Focusrite interface for headphone practice). So I go to GC and find one of the last Mesa Walkabouts on Clearance and end up buying it at a great price. That amp was inspiring! Enough so, in fact, that I started looking for another group to play out with. There's a wedding and the purchase of a house sometime in this period of time but I never end up joining another band.
Putting the cart ahead of the horse I end up selling that Walkabout for my 'dream Rig'; the one to end all GAS: an SVT-CL Heritage head and brand new Heritage 810 from
Sweetwater because, hey - I have a house/garage now and figure I'll be finding another band playing out again soon -right?
Wrong. I change careers from teaching to data analysis. Budget cuts at work lead to lateral movement within the company to avoid unemployment. I end up working Help Desk as a contractor (under-employed?). Need to manage my income better. I stop my search for a band to join and realize - "HEY! This stuff is heavy! I can't manage this much gear without additional help" -meaning that if I started looking for a band again I would absolutely need help moving gear in order to play out. Suddenly my confidence wains in my ability to ask/trust complete strangers for muscle with this kind of gear. In my mind: the gear became a hurdle to rejoining a band! Plus, Am I even good enough to deserve this level of equipment? Thanks to TB I end up selling the whole rig (read: rent an F150, ask friends/wife for help moving it, transport and deliver to shipping office or buyer, take a bath). I tell myself + wife never again will I be in that type of position with gear.
Still wanting to join a group and play out, I take to researching lighter weight, gig-worthy gear.
I remember my experience with Mesa and find Mesa's WD800 along with 2 Mesa Traditional PH 2x10 cabs for a modular 410 rig. Sweetwater sells me these two cabs for a deal just as Mesa completely switches over to the Subway series of cabs. Great! I can split the rig up between a potential band/practice spot and home and combine it together when playing out as necessary. I can lift this gear with relative ease on my own! Now, let's see about a band..
Suddenly, we're pregnant! Same job as mentioned above. Same house. Same friend "let's jam again soon!", still no band. Things come to pass as mentioned in the beginning which is where I currently find myself and, to be clear: family comes first.
It's been 10 years now since I've played out or even, for that matter, really jammed with anyone. I have a 3 month old baby boy. Medical debt sucks. I have relatively light 2x210 killer Mesa Rig w/ Mesa WD800. I don't know guys, I just don't see playing out as an attainable goal anymore? Not even thinking about those threads where people are talking about "is it worth it to gig" and so on. I mean, for my personal situation, man, it has literally been a hotdog dangling on a stick. Maybe someday again in the next 10 years once my son is a little older? But, that line of thinking sounds vaguely familiar...
So, this is my reality. I appreciate and respect the gear I have/had but I don't think I can justify this much firepower for just home practice anymore -especially with a wife, kid, and bills. The WD800 has great tone and a headphone jack and can DI to record with but so can many other options for several hundy cheaper and with cash back in my pocket - I'm having a hard time justifying it to myself. As for the cabs - forget it I guess and let them go? Way too much. Again, cash is king. Could just sock them in a corner and say the same "some day" thing over and over again or use them with the WD800 and barely touch the volume. Seems a waste of power and money though to do that - I don't even care about having that much overhead Gain, especially at home.
I recently saw someone comment on a thread that really made me reflect on things. It read something like this: "
It is amazing what you can afford when you stop being a professional."
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TLDR; kids/life can be a lot of work. I am an average dude who happens to have professional/studio grade gig-ready equipment right now but haven't played out in 10 years and don't see being able to again for minimum another 2-3 if ever?. I'm lucky to practice/play in my home office once a week; probably too much cash tied up in gear. If I record it is for home practice/self betterment only. Leaning towards selling off likely never to rebuy this much unless a situation actually presents itself where this type of gear would be justified. Famous last words?
Anyone ever been through this? Am I nuts to part with this gear? I would like to keep playing. See poll for options I am considering and if you made it this far, thank you for reading.