I wouldn't begin to know where to begin processing your journey so I will leave that to you. However, about half the students I work with present with what is a clearly earnest desire to do everything the best they can from the start. Often they're very nervous because they're hoping to be famous and are worried that they aren't doing enough in pursuit of that goal. Typically they are not hostile when I give them the advice that I gave you, but it has happened before and, then as now, I ignore it and instead focus constructively on repeating the advice that I attempted to give you before.
Addressing your question; no, neither fear nor anxiety have played much of a role in my own experience with this instrument. I started a long time ago with a Simandl instructor, I loved that. Then I spent several years studying with a Rabbath teacher, I loved that too. They had me switching from French to German and back, huge fan of both. Stool, no stool, etc etc. I spent years playing nothing but jazz because Simandl was sqaure, then years playing nothing but classical repertoire because jazz was for philistines, then nothing but bluegrass or americana or whatever was paying at the time. Exploring the space of possibilities on this big ridiculous instrument has been one of the great joys of my life.
What I learned is that there's really nothing to worry about. I gave you the advice that I did because you (and everyone who has been chosen by this instrument) have become enchanted by what I believe to be the most ridiculous instrument that a person could decide to play, other than perhaps the piano. The piano is ridiculous because every night of your life as a working musician, you may be called upon to play an instrument you have never even seen before, much less played. In order to succeed, flexiblity will be required. Adherance to particulars will, therefore, become a liability. You may need to stretch. You will play many rented instruments.
Once you understand what the challenge is, it's easy to see that there is no single best path to follow toward the goal of learning this instrument. You are likely to take many routes that don't yield fruit and have to back up and possibly start over again. You are going to change instruments, bows, strings, postures, methods, etc ad nauseam. You cannot optimize this process by making the right choices the first time through because you can only learn whether these methods work for you by trying them. That includes physical choices like the size and shape of the instrument, the grip and length and weight of the bow, and all of that. So the time that you spend thinking "must I choose A or B" is better spent exploring both A and B. It's really worth it.
Anwyay with all sincerity, it is absolutely good that you care about what matters, and I wish you the best of luck on the journey.
