I took early retirement from my company and probably will take a few months to a year before getting back on the job market even though as per Fidelity I can retire now, I am not 60 yet.
I hear you. 2 weeks in I thought I'd be just deep into music but I think it will take a while to get out of work mode. I was in demanding high tech semi conductor industry and was working up to half the day during my last day. Did this for 25 years and at least 5 more years before that in software development.
I think based on what I know of you, you are mostly a musician at church (which you do quite well) and probably not a regular working cover band musician like so many of the TB members are? Do you compose? Why do you think you have to be more skilled than what you are now? Where do you think your self doubt comes from? And if you are still a year out of retirement, why are you worrying about it now?
For me there is no need to become more skilled in bass => BECAUSE
1- I consider myself in some ways a community musician and that community does not demand of me to be as virtuosic as what YouTubers bass experts peddle or show off. Just lowend support and groove that suits the level that these players have us well.
2- I also play with experimental free jazz community, who want to express fully but not be as acrobatic as those YouTube bassists. That music has very limited audience and in some ways we are just playing for ourselves.
So in both there is no pressure to be popular and all that's really needed is to enhance those communities
And on my personal solo side. It's just creating sound tracks, foux-chestra, faux film scores that I lay down on my DAW using sound libraires and my keyboards and other instruments. The only audience is me. Through experimentation, I discover new ideas and sounds.
I advice to look at youtube less - discover your own self (and your community) and not the marcuses, spauldings. navarros and SBLs of the internet.
I hear you. 2 weeks in I thought I'd be just deep into music but I think it will take a while to get out of work mode. I was in demanding high tech semi conductor industry and was working up to half the day during my last day. Did this for 25 years and at least 5 more years before that in software development.
I think based on what I know of you, you are mostly a musician at church (which you do quite well) and probably not a regular working cover band musician like so many of the TB members are? Do you compose? Why do you think you have to be more skilled than what you are now? Where do you think your self doubt comes from? And if you are still a year out of retirement, why are you worrying about it now?
For me there is no need to become more skilled in bass => BECAUSE
1- I consider myself in some ways a community musician and that community does not demand of me to be as virtuosic as what YouTubers bass experts peddle or show off. Just lowend support and groove that suits the level that these players have us well.
2- I also play with experimental free jazz community, who want to express fully but not be as acrobatic as those YouTube bassists. That music has very limited audience and in some ways we are just playing for ourselves.
So in both there is no pressure to be popular and all that's really needed is to enhance those communities
And on my personal solo side. It's just creating sound tracks, foux-chestra, faux film scores that I lay down on my DAW using sound libraires and my keyboards and other instruments. The only audience is me. Through experimentation, I discover new ideas and sounds.
I advice to look at youtube less - discover your own self (and your community) and not the marcuses, spauldings. navarros and SBLs of the internet.
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