I don't understand blind, reckless rage

[Bassist4Eris]

People with bi-polar disorder deserve love like anyone else, but that doesn't mean it has to be you that gives it to them. That's harsh I know. But I was married to a bi-polar and it was a living hell. A hell your Dad is in, and you seem to be intent on following him into.

Break up with the psycho girlfriend. Sorry, I'm not feeling PC tonight.

Things that are said in rage are probably the person's true feelings. When they calm down, they realize that keeping the peace means some little white lies, and then it's "I didn't mean it". Trust me, they did. In fact, sometimes the very reason for the rage is repressing one's true feelings for too long.

I say this as a guy who flies off the handle sometimes. They are some of my most honest moments, too. In fact, as I get older, I become more and more of an incorrigible bastard, and so what? You ALWAYS know where you stand with me. Plus, calling it like I see it BEFORE it drives me crazy, helps keep me from going crazy, can you dig it?

BTW, people who have anger and depression issues (I'm talking about myself here too) should DEFINITELY stay away from guns. For the love of whatever god you believe in.

 

[oniman7]

So we are talking about a household with one family member who has been diagnosed with a mental illness, another who believes he might be suffering from a mental illness and fights breaking out on occasion that could be described as "blind rages" and y'all are going to collect guns together? What could possibly go wrong here?

I don't really think it's unusual since everybody I know has said it happens once in a while. Nobody in the family has every had a violent incident or arrest, which is more then can be said for most. This isn't about that

 

[oniman7]

Maybe I should clarify. I'm not looking for personal advice. I just saw an aspect of human experience I wanted to talk about. The back story was simply what made me interested

 

[christoph h.]

Well, I think the fact that your mother is NOT in control of her emotions and that you have developed the ability to be in control of your emotions at all times is closely related.

So the "back story" - as you called it - in a way already gives you an answer to the question about "why" you don't understand blind rage.

Sorry for being so cryptic, but it's hard to comment on this without relating to your back story in a way that you may perceive as "missing the point", because it wouldn't be a general discussion. You said you're not looking for personal advice, but your back story really evokes the feeling that you should be looking for just that.

To be honest, even if you don't feel like it NOW, and even if it doesn't seem to be problematic at this point in time, I think it would be really good to talk to a professional about this. Regard it as an "pre-emptive measure".