I am a new bass player and an old man, I turn 49 next month, and in the last year I have become totally obsessed with become a musician and a bass player. It has pretty much taken over all of my other hobbies. I am the kind of person who tends to analyze things, probably over analyze but I have been trying to figure out what is the reason for this change, and I think I have it figured out, I am looking for God. When I say this I am not using the term in the usual religious institutionalized way, I will have to give a little background. As a child I was quite sickly and spent a lot of time in the hospital near death so at 8 years old I was seriously contemplating the afterlife, identity, and other pretty heavy subjects for a child. It is usually when one is in their 40s and 50s when people start thinking of their mortality which usually leads them to God and religion, but I went thru that at 8, so what am I going thru now? I believe that thru music we are able to connect to something outside of ourselves and that something is God for lack of a better term. It doesn't ask anything of us nor does it want anything. It is just there and the trick is to try and commune with it. Right now when I play I am so green that all of my concentration is on hitting or finding the right notes (I know they are all right notes but I do want to sound good heheh), instead of just riding the groove. That is what I am looking for, I want to ride the groove. I love talkbass forum and have received a lot of information and enjoyment from the threads on it. I have also noticed that people are so much more helpful here than on any other forums I have been on, you guys have a great community. So anyway my question is to all of you "old" new bass players out there, what bought you to music?