No I completely understand. I know some guitar players who I'm good friends with that want to jam and they can hook me up with other guys. I was talking more about like CraigslistI'm sorry for your situation, but if you're not investing it the gear, it really doesn't look good to bandleaders that don't know you from the next guy. You're fughting an uphill battle. I'd suggest starting your own band where you can get around the de facto "rules" of the biz. I'm not trying to be mean, just realistic.