And then the crash happened.
I was standing in my kitchen one night when I heard my wife pull into the driveway and then open the door and come in. I was standing there with a bottle of whiskey in my hand and a confused look on my face because she never left without me. She said, "It's all gone." I didn't know what she meant at the time. I told her to go to sleep and get some rest.
I then walked into my "story room" where I concoct most of this bull**** and proceded to drink and make up stuff.
Soon it occured to me that I smelled something like rotting meat and that it was not just my imagination, so I went back into the kitchen to find the source - which must have been left-out food from the previous night - in order to bag it up and put it in the outside trash container. But what I found was a shock to me because my wife was dead on the floor. In an intense fit of crying and calling out her name like a madman, I remembered. And I forgot.
I put her in my car and driving through my tears I could barely see the lines on the road, but I kept driving.
I kept driving.
I know of a place where secrets die. Where all of us go, but only those who know who they are. Who am I? This road never ends. I keep driving and it's just endless yellow dots and gravel and asphalt. I want to die. Where is it? I loved you too much, my sweety. What happened to you? Who did this? How did this happen?
I saw myself floating, drowning in a bottle of whiskey. I stopped the car and got out. There I was. Dead. Floating in a bottle of whiskey. And all her dolls in her old bedroom screamed like wraiths as I drowned. Furious that she was gone. Furious that I did this. She is gone forever and they won't stop screaming even as I drown. I got back in the car.
But as I was driving, I noticed an intense light in my eyes and struggled to get away from it because it seemed so loud. I swerved as much as I could, but the screaming would not stop.
Then it hit me that the screaming was coming from my wife and that I had drifted off and the car was
But it was too late
And then the crash happened.