What you don't know is that you already have inspired me! lol
But just keep your head up, please keep your head up, because at the end of the day all you have is yourself. I'm still learning to get over my depression and anxiety (just went to the hospital Thursday because of a very bad panic attack), but the things that help me could be the smallestt of things like when someone says hello or smiles at me, or even when i learn a new song on bass. I am also poor as well, always have been, but the more I pray and think positive, the more positive I get. Just last week a man contacted me on here about giving me his bass guitar for free!!! I thought it was a scam, but it wasn't, he just believed that I had a bright future and wanted to make sure I keep on the right path. He awarded me with my first Fender, but it's not the bass that I really am happy about, it's the fact that someone who I don't even know cares for me that much and wants to help. Right now the world is going through a lot, but it's nice to think that good people like that man exist! So please know your worth and just how special you are, that things will get better with time. There's actually this quote by the great gospel singer Marvin Sapp in which he states, " God takes away something you never expected losing, but God will replace it with something you never imagined you could have." Sorry if you don't believe in him, but what I'm trying to say is that we gotta wait for things to get better, but it'll be worth it in the end. Take care and I hope all the best!