I'm sure that for the majority of us ensemble playing is a goal. In ensembles, if you're tied up full time with thinking about your own playing there's not much of your thinking resources left to hear and interpret and accompany or react smoothly to what the rest of the band is playing.
Most of us start in music with learning the notes, leading to the presumption that the notes, being first-learned, are the most important things. With that as our beginning, it soon becomes the greatest obstacle to our becoming musicians. We burden ourselves with a false obligation to get the notes right before giving any thought to the other aspects of the music. Unfortunately, we hold fast to our early learning (in all areas, not only music) so when we're told to use feelings instead, we have a mental disconnect to deal with.
I don't have what it takes to convey that "feeling" idea to someone online. However hard it seems, try to digest what Vic's DVD and your teacher are giving you. FWIW a friend who struggled as a beginner started getting it when I persuaded him to lean back in his chair instead of forward when practicing scales or etudes that he already had half a handle on. Leaning back is a more relaxed posture and the lower body tension seems to have helped him. YMMV
Most of us start in music with learning the notes, leading to the presumption that the notes, being first-learned, are the most important things. With that as our beginning, it soon becomes the greatest obstacle to our becoming musicians. We burden ourselves with a false obligation to get the notes right before giving any thought to the other aspects of the music. Unfortunately, we hold fast to our early learning (in all areas, not only music) so when we're told to use feelings instead, we have a mental disconnect to deal with.
I don't have what it takes to convey that "feeling" idea to someone online. However hard it seems, try to digest what Vic's DVD and your teacher are giving you. FWIW a friend who struggled as a beginner started getting it when I persuaded him to lean back in his chair instead of forward when practicing scales or etudes that he already had half a handle on. Leaning back is a more relaxed posture and the lower body tension seems to have helped him. YMMV