Sorry, not much reason to post this, I'm just dwelling and need to vent...
So to start this, I recently lost my crappy, low paying job. While I had the job though, I put a bass amp on lay-away at the local pawn shop, just a lowly Behringer BX1200, but an amp nonetheless, because frankly I am absolutely sick and tired of playing through my line 6 gx and having to use my crappy headphones.
So fast-forward to now, I still have 100$ left on the amp, but only 80$ bucks to my name, and am incredibly lucky not to have any bills at the moment, but am not exactly willing to spend the last of my money on the amp, especially since at the moment I have no more money coming in the foreseeable future.
So today, since I also don't have a car at the moment, my grandma gave me a ride to a casino to put in an application for a job, all fine and dandy, but afterwards, my grandma, an avid gambler decided she wanted to hit up the slots while we were there, so I was just gonna chill out and just kinda cheer her on...
Well eventually I got bored and decided, what the heck, why not have a little fun so I pulled out 20$ and decided to go at it for awhile. Well, after about 30 minutes I had most triumphantly turned that 20$ into 85$, and was on cloud nine, I've been to casinos a couple times before and had never at any given time been up for anymore than a couple bucks before it all went back into the machine, and was about to pull out all my money and call it good, when all of a sudden I had become broke again... I had gotten greedy and stupid and put it all back in the machine... AAAARRRRRGGGGGGHHHH
So now I sit here, dwelling in my greedy stupidity, with thoughts of how I could be playing my awesome new amp (for me at least) right now, because if I had kept my winnings that would have given me enough buffer room to get the amp tonight and all would be good, and now with no money coming in I have no plans of picking it up ANYTIME soon. And with the fact that yesterday I missed an amazing job opportunity due to something really dumb that I did a couple weeks ago on my birthday, I am really feeling pretty down right now just over the whole mess. I wish I could just write these off as nothing gained, nothing lost, but these really sting right now and just had to vent.
tl;dr, I'm dumb and hate myself at the moment.
So to start this, I recently lost my crappy, low paying job. While I had the job though, I put a bass amp on lay-away at the local pawn shop, just a lowly Behringer BX1200, but an amp nonetheless, because frankly I am absolutely sick and tired of playing through my line 6 gx and having to use my crappy headphones.
So fast-forward to now, I still have 100$ left on the amp, but only 80$ bucks to my name, and am incredibly lucky not to have any bills at the moment, but am not exactly willing to spend the last of my money on the amp, especially since at the moment I have no more money coming in the foreseeable future.
So today, since I also don't have a car at the moment, my grandma gave me a ride to a casino to put in an application for a job, all fine and dandy, but afterwards, my grandma, an avid gambler decided she wanted to hit up the slots while we were there, so I was just gonna chill out and just kinda cheer her on...
Well eventually I got bored and decided, what the heck, why not have a little fun so I pulled out 20$ and decided to go at it for awhile. Well, after about 30 minutes I had most triumphantly turned that 20$ into 85$, and was on cloud nine, I've been to casinos a couple times before and had never at any given time been up for anymore than a couple bucks before it all went back into the machine, and was about to pull out all my money and call it good, when all of a sudden I had become broke again... I had gotten greedy and stupid and put it all back in the machine... AAAARRRRRGGGGGGHHHH
So now I sit here, dwelling in my greedy stupidity, with thoughts of how I could be playing my awesome new amp (for me at least) right now, because if I had kept my winnings that would have given me enough buffer room to get the amp tonight and all would be good, and now with no money coming in I have no plans of picking it up ANYTIME soon. And with the fact that yesterday I missed an amazing job opportunity due to something really dumb that I did a couple weeks ago on my birthday, I am really feeling pretty down right now just over the whole mess. I wish I could just write these off as nothing gained, nothing lost, but these really sting right now and just had to vent.
tl;dr, I'm dumb and hate myself at the moment.

