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Eh...Er...Kinda???...I mean I’m trying harder and harder to listen to if the song is going up and down in pitch—I mean-Does that really even count???...
It’s like I can’t always hear the bass line in the song so I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing...Shouldn’t I also be listening to the other instruments???...
This might be a stupid question, but isn’t one of the jobs of the bass player to sorta foster synergy to the rest of the band???...And if so, can that be done by feel/emotion alone??? (Maybe I’m intellectualizing something that is more primal and I just need to learn to relax and stop trying so hard???)...Also-It’s probably different when playing with other people???
Even then I’m not always sure bc I can usually tell when I’m playing the wrong notes (occasionally I can tell I played the right note even when I know it was dumb luck and I just stumbled into doing something right (hey, even a broken clock is right twice a day)...
I also worry I’m out of rhythm so I sometimes find my mind wandering and find myself slapping the open E string to the beat to try to figure out how to keep time...Maybe I’m overthinking it and just need to try to play by “feel”???...
What was weird was that tonight when I didn’t use tabs and just played along to an album it sorta felt more like I was playing for “real” and not just trying to play Bass Hero on my iPad...(Maybe that’s a good thing???)

So, in summary-I’m sorry but it’s probably obvious if you made it this far into reading this rambling post that I’m not even sure I know the answer to that question myself bc I fear my hearing isn’t sharp enough but wouldn’t playing without tablature like that end up honing my listening skills over time???
(Additional feedback would be appreciated)...
Thanks! \m/